I'm a guilt magnet. I think I could be made to do just about anything if someone could figure out how to manipulate me into feeling guilty about it. I'm not kidding. It's my Achilles Heel, my Kryptonite.
It also keeps me from being truly happy (whatever that means) and from feeling free to be me.
I was told about a week or so ago that I was scattered and needed to find out "who I was." Easier said than done. Both statements are true (and hard to hear). But, I change who I am and try to be based on the circumstances I'm in...a human chameleon. I wouldn't go as far as saying I'm a hypocrite. I do have value system and I do not say one thing and do another, I just give up a little of me to please people.
Pleasing people is born out of guilt.
It's pretty messed up, I'll admit. I confuse my guilt/people pleasing with empathy and sympathy. So, I don't have any words of wisdom or "aha" moments tonight, but rather, looking for some advice.
How do I still show I care without losing myself?
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